The Wanderer and His Shadow

Who are you.. Who am I?

I don't like people texting me. Especially those I don't know. It drains energy on my battery which could be used on a different thing. No wonder the consumption of power / population here in our country is far greater than other Asian countries. It's bad for the environment. We don't cherish what we still abundantly have.

But last night was one of those interesting moments wherein I actually was curious of who was texting me.. I thought it was a stalker or someone... hehe.. here are some of the text messages he sent.. I omitted some parts of those I sent..

x: I like it, when i see your frustrations shown on your face, it makes you very vulnerable. But still after all these years, you still suffering from it.
me: who's this?
x: A torn page in your diary
me: So, can I put it back?
x: Is that a question? How could you put back a torn page. You can't. And if you did it's not the same page in it's original state. It's Heraclitus 101.
me: ...
x: The Wanderer and the shadow - talking about a person still searching for something but can't leave his past behind. Frustrating? Ha! Ha! Ha! You're really a mortal!
me: ...
x: Heard that you can't sleep last night? Still thinking? You realize this so called existentialist life is so cruel? Read one of your fave book "myth of sisyphus" and you wonder why the author died of car accident without able to live his life to the fullest. After all these years, you still have the angst of a searcher. Maybe you are not in the...
me: So, how did you get my number?
x: It's not important how I got your number. What's important is that I know what's on your mind. A profiler? Am not. Have read Ann Rule's about Ted Bundy. It's called stranger beside me.
me: Introduce yourself to me then.
x: You mean introduce myself? Oh comeon, you know me. Why don't we talk more about you. You're now a team leader, with bigger responsibility. Can you handle the heat so bad that won't crack?
me: ...
x: Ha! Ha! Ha! I've got you there! As expected, you're going to ask that. But I'm not. Just testing my persuasion skill :-) this is going to be fun. My mind against your mind.
x: By the way, Billie Holiday is the better singer compared to Ella Fitzgerald. What do you think? Or you could use kalsada.com to be a website for freethinkers like us?
me: where did I know you?
x: 1) You know me 2) I'm illiterate 3) I'm normal 4) loves philosophy, psycho, literature, advertising, computer, religion, history, and everything under the sun 5) I'm contented
me: ...
x: Got my identity? By the way, you can also ask those hard questions that are lingering on your mind. You know what, your pic on the site reminds me of Franz Kafka.
me: You got a name? Are you still studying?
x: Takes time really to read previous message, isn't it? Still studying life. As I have told you, you know me very well. So no need to ask me. :-x
me: ...
x: Does it matter to you? Just consider me as your inner voice who will guide you through the travails of life. You got everything, but still you're not satisfied.
me: ...
x: See what I mean? Have you seen "groundhog day", Life's like that, awake eat sleep awake eat sleep and so on. What then, is the meaning of life? What's the purpose?
me: How will I be able to trust you?
x: That's right. You can't trust someone you don't know. It's a defense mechanism. Very human nature! But you be surprised if you found out who I am. A speck of dust in your eyes.
me: So why are you doing this?
x: Doing what? Just impressed that after all these years you became a more refine, articulate, well mannered Patrick Chua. At least, you are not just one of the unknown.
me: ...
x: Sometimes, the student do forget their teacher. And it would take some event for them to realize that what they learn is not enough. Humility is a virtue :-x
me: ...
x: "On the farther side of the street" my identity is written on the bottom of this message. Good Luck!

Hmm.. interesting? hehe.. I now know who he is.. After a lot of emotional and mental brain draining, he finally told me who he was! (With a lot of negative comments nevertheless) hehe... Someone I knew way before my world started to be conscious. He's my friend and mentor... haha.. I still wasn't able to surpass my master. ;) I wonder what he does right now.. Well, he maybe having a meeting with Kofi Anan right now.

posted by Pat @ 10:44 PM