re: Dearest..?
Goodbye is seen in many ways, in many forms. It is in "goodbyes" that people go to another hiatus in their lives. More often than not, it is the one who was left behind the one feeling worse than the one who leaves. Footprints are made by the one who left, the scars for the one left behind to heal..Lately, I've been experiencing various intense cycle of emotional pain. The past few days were a witness to my emotional depression.. unable to explain the reason behind the feelings, i may have committed the biggest blunder in my life. i wish i could just fade into my memories.. but who said that life was ever this easy...?
well, just maybe, i need to adjust myself now. having felt the pain again of being left by somebody special.. having felt the love that could have been surreal.. or perhaps love's really surreal in the sense that it takes us out of ourselves and when it leaves.. it prints a scar in our hearts that will forever be left unhealed.. for the questions of love are beyond human comprehension. and the risk to take are far from the discernment.
Or maybe perhaps love really is but just a product of human language. a fathomable flaw of human understanding. it is a depth beyond human inteligence..
Therefore love may just be a penetrating blood since it's piercing my heart deep inside after being left by someone special. in which case i surmise that maybe.. just maybe, that love exist only in relation to non-love. which is true with happiness.. as kahlil puts it that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
now, the complexities of this relationship has taken me to re-think the future that's in store. well, i guess two people in the same work roof cannot last long. i plan to finish just my three months here and maybe just accept the offer that has been pending for a long time in HK. maybe fate wants me there. or maybe, just maybe, that love will cease to exist, for in memory, pain dwells. and in the heart, dwells love.
hmm... simple, it's so easy to remember yet so hard to forget.
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