The Wanderer and His Shadow

Christmas here and there... Merry?

Before I type anything here, I have to be carefull about what I write, the spiders who crawl my site won't have much news to bring to others... ;) Knowing that month to date, my site transferred 249 MB of data to the computers of other people worldwide.. Somebody might have something against me.. =) So here I am carefully choosing the right words to write in this post christmas pre new year post.

Finally, christmas has ended. I spent my christmas in bulacan with G. and his family, and later went to my team to greet them and show them my utmost gratitude and support as they spend that special day away from their loved ones all in the name of service and duty. I have been thinking a lot about the past, the current year, and the year that is about to come... I'll post my resolution once we get there.

For three weeks now, I've been devoid of any internet connection at home. I couldn't do any projects due to the disconnection from an overlooked bill. :( Well, here I am at the cafe thinking about the days ahead of us.

For me, I hope I have a clear direction on where I wanted to go. Truly, you can fight things in life, or you can move into them with grace. I may as well stay at this company who chose to implement something without a policy just to please the bosses and say "hey we implemented something".. (out of nowhere though). They implemented something out of nothing. I'm still furious. I wish I know what I am about to do next now that the year is about to end. Maybe, I could just accept the job at Hong Kong managing a company's factory in China. Or probably accept the recent offer at ------ to head their operations MIS department. Though choosing the first one would give away all the freedom I have. Or I could just be a good boy to chose to be loyal for a company whose headed by people not worth working for. Who very much epitomizes cruelty in the strongest sense. Though I must admit my team will be my utmost priority before making any decisions, avoiding any notion of my leaving seen as a betrayal, or a captain abandoning the ship. Nevertheless, it will be a tough decision for me as I hope to start the coming year right.

For the past few days, Patronus' spirit has been affected by the unending "rumors" hounding us. Motivation is at an all time low. Performance receeded a little (having good stats is already in their blood and their system). I must admit, I was caught off guard. There was not enough foresight in my part. The arrow that was shot at us was from nowhere, and it pierced us hard. As I greet most of them during our team dinner in libis last night, I saw in their eyes how they wished things were like before... The problem with bosses sometimes, is as soon as they're wielding more power than they've ever had in their life, they'll get a false sense of their own importance.

If I chose to stay, hopefully, I'll be able to bring the spirit back and restore the pride that was once ours! The best team is here to stay. Patronus' motto of having the wonderful bond of unity will alwasy be remembered. Even if we part ways, I know that the spirit of Patronus will forever remain. There will be those who'll chose to remember our team in harmony (for which I will be thankful). We have done a lot in our own little effort to bring the company to where it is now, to implement and set new standards for other teams to follow. We chose to be different, simply because I believe in setting new standards. I believe change is constant. I believe being the best means getting out of the norm.. creating new leads for others to follow. We have redefined all that was impossible. Only the best accept nothing less than perfection and my team is known to leave nothing to chance. I believe we shall continue to inspire the next batch of people in this company...

For now, I shall choose to wait for the year to end before making any decisions. As Hamlet put it- "To be or not to be, that is the question.." In doing so, I shall consider the greater good for the greatest number of people. And making sure that the decision will be highly regarded. There will no lesser evil this time. Just the best for everyone as we head towards another year. I shall think carefully, as I have carefully chose every word I wrote, and before doing the inevitable...

To my team, the true heroes of the company, who gave me the privilege and the opportunity of a lifetime to be able to work with them, bringing them together in harmony, for whom I shall be forever indebted; and to everyone else, thank you and Merry Christmas.

Unitas Mirabille Vinculum. For in this world of ordinary and conventional, only the most distinctive will ever leave a truly lasting impression.

Long live Patronus.

posted by Pat @ 1:47 PM