The Wanderer and His Shadow

The Great Depression

Around four weeks ago, on a sunday night, I met the most interesting person that I wanted to be with until now. That person dated me and revived the flame of love that was long lost and dead. This person showed me love, but we never became a reality.

After two sundays, my so called best friend stoled this person's heart, along with it, my sanity. My best friend whom I trusted, who just came from a break up, suddenly found it easy to have a rebound relationship with Xtn. Now, I lost a friend and a lover. Both of whom meant so much to me that it took away my drive and my focus on the things that matter to me.

Rusty said it well when he said that the two won't last long because they never had a relationship that is based on a solid foundation. The fact is that they knew all along that once you are able to do that to others, what is stopping them from doing it to each other?

I met both of them last night. I tried to win Xtn's heart back, well, at least that is what happened. Even after making a fool of myself.... at least all i could say is I've done my part to try to save what little is left. My ex bestfriend who I am disowning as a result of the cruelty that person did to me, was so arrogantly staring at me as if nothing wrong was ever done. I guess, I feel quite relieved after doing that. At least I know that I can safely move on and put the past where it should be. I believe I've done the right thing to just stop, for they are unworthy of me and my time.

Does love has to be this complicated? Love is best cherished in it's simplest form.... full of purity and passion. Love is best expressed with the universal language of action. No words can ever take the place of the true essence of love.

If love really is true, why then do people put their own self interest before what they can see is the best for that person? I sometimes don't see the logic of equating fighting for love for one's self interest and love that is for the interest of what is right. I guess in this world we live in, nothing is definite. Not even truth. Everything is always subjective. There is nothing absolute in this world.

If only they were wiser.... but people always fail to see the future and only focuses on the present.

The bright side of it all... at least I got to know the people who are true to me and are there for me in bad times! It was an instant Christmas loyalty check!

Here are some of our pictures when we climbed Mt. Makiling. Some of the few treasured memories that I'll choose to remain as such.

posted by Pat @ 9:37 AM